7 days.. has it now officially become a countdown?

What I never mentioned before, is the fact that I am off travelling to Czech yet again therefore I will have to face up to my fears and confront my silly Czech Boy so that I can finally try to achieve closure. Even though I have absolutely no idea what the upcoming week shall bring, I know that by this time next week I would have either seen my Czech boy and everything will be lovely; he would've picked me up from the airport, drive me home, he would take me out to dinner somewhere, get me a little drunk and then before he would finally drop me off at my nan's, we'd have sex in the back of his car, perfect! The other option is that I would'nt have heard from him whatsoever which indicates to him getting back with his satanic-like ex girlfriend therefore I won't see him, none of our plans will become reality and that I would have wasted my whole reading week because, despite loving my nan's company, I would much rather be in the UK, full of parties and friends.

If I don't sort this out with Luke I will be livid, purely because I have organised this entire trip in order to see him therefore if I don't, it will be such a waste of money and my dignity for that matter. Another issue is that all his friends and me will now have a rather akward relationship so my amazing outings in Czech will be even more limited, considering that my other casual fling guy in Czech has just gotten his girlfriend pregnant and there is only so much time I can spend with my 23 year old cousin and his friends. When I go out with my cousin there is also another big problem, he is like a brother to me so I have to be careful what I do with his friends especially, he is far too protective of me in my opinion so I can never have too much fun. But I have thanked him for various rescues of myself countless times before, I love him :)

Right now, I am sat here thanking my step-father's stupidity for making him forget to block blogger. Most other websites are blocked, he even went as far as blocking my documents & my computer so my college work is unexcessible. Why you ask? There is absolutely no reason if I am completely honest.

Another unfinished blog, my mind is still all over the place, sorry..

- Eve Anna x

Jamie Archer. Xfactor 2009

After watching tonight's live X factor show once more I have to admit I have been completely enchanted by Jamie 'Afro' Archer. Right from his very first audition I loved his entire persona; from the frizzy afro to the graspy voice and 70's hippie style, he was born to be an entertainer. Considering that this is definitely his last chance at the big break, the coninscidences of this years X factor auditions could not have come at a better time for this gorgeous man's 'big break'.

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At the age of 33 he has gained sufficient experience in the industry right in the middle of the big city of London and is at the peak of both, his physical and vocal abilities. Therefore if all his effort is rightly accounted for and he wins this year's X factor he could easily become one of the most influencial alternate music genre figures of today. Luckily, Jamie hit the jackpot with mentor Simon Cowell, well known for many different specific characteristics but none the less a fabulous brain box within the music industry, both old/ new, popular/ alternative, a perfect tutor and role model for the oldest entrant in this year's competition, Archer.

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Singing is not Jamie's only ability as he is also a master at guitar and would possibly even have the ability to put together a one man band, surely this not being necessary after showing his unreal talent to the nation. Even though he has stated that performing without an instrument pains him and that he has never previously performed without one, even if it were only his trusted tambourine. It is therefore clear that in the upcoming shows he will perform in his comfort zone with his guitar and maybe other insturments also, that is if he is to stay in, but I have no doubt that this will happen as he is one of the public's favorite.

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This middle aged musician is clearly the most detirmined out of this year's finalists due to this being his last chance causing him to show his upmost best every week. Because of his background and such ambitions even after years of only singing in bars and small gigs around central London, I admire this man enormously, even more so after tonight's performance. I don't ever vote for anybody on reality shows but I may have to make an exception for this gorgeous man, trully a gem in the rough. I confess that for once I look forward to next Saturday night when I settle down on the sofa with a few friends, my cats and a bottle of Chardonnay just to enjoy this extraordinary performance.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0wnhHB-A1A

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[Jamie Archer's performance of Christina Aguilera's 'Hurt'- 17/10/2009]

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I wish you all good night-

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Eve Anna x

Summer Romance, part 2

I wish I still had my emergency alcohol on me really, my mood will probably not improve very much by writing the continuation of my summer romance. I guess my soberity will have to be compensated with my non-stop Deadmau5 playlist. Cannot believe I missed their gig in London on Wednesday, this made me regret forgetting to buy tickets. Anyway carrying on the story begun two blogs ago, the difference is that now I will be writing it from my knowledge of ll the occurances, not the half knowledge of two months ago, everything has certainly changed towards to worse, otherwise known as reality.

As I neared the beaten old but somehow cosy looking car I noticed the two boys sitting there, by boys I mean 22 and 23 so they really didn't have much boy left in them, besides the obvious over excitement for football. As I got in, I was immediately the conversation of the car: they had never met a girl that could speak both English & Czech fluently, a little bit of French & Spanish, drunk vodka straight from the bottle, specifically asked for a cigarette and didn't let them get away with any insults, and if I do say so myself, they loved it :D By the end of the car journey I actually felt pretty comfortable with these strangers despite the minor language set backs, 5 year age gaps and the fact that the two of them were pretty much gorgeous. We arrived at our destination and much to my surprise there were about 5 more attractive males all greeting me with gentleman-like manners (I was very tempted to just stay in Czech as English males can't often be compared), after they all started changing telling me the weather would get rather chilly. I had nothing to change into therefore was stuck in a summer dress and gladiator sandals, sipping my red wine and coke whilst I watched all of them change and walk around topless in front of me, to point out the obvious, I was in seventh heaven already knowing that this was nothing compared to what was awaiting that night. I know I sound cocky but I was getting so much attention for being the exotic stranger, plus the other girls resembled fat ginger old men (lovely personalities though) so I knew I would pull if not more by the end of the evening.. I had a great choice here.. males with too much testosterone wanting no commitment, me with 1 night to make most of this, alot of cigarettes and alcohol, a very short dress, explicit dancing, simply the perfect combination for my say goodnight and go theory to go according to plan. I know that if I were in England that the situation would've been different undoubtedly as the boys are alot less sensitive, this can have both positive and negative aspects of course.

Even though I knew that I was the shiny new toy for the night, I did not let it phase me. I enjoyed the attention but despite developing a slight preference for the cheeky boy who drove me to the chalet, I remained mutual, I thought I would only act upon any advances they made if 1) I was comfortable 2) I was sure it would be okay. 3) It wouldn't upset any of them nor myself. After we knocked a few drinks back at some festival, (I don't even remember what as it wasn't interesting) messed around with a Hannah Montana yoyo and got to eachother better we decided to go to the club. By this point the it was starting to be quite clear that Luke, cheeky car boy, had taken a liking to me just as much as I had to him and I was over the moon, this probably being enhanced by the drinks that kept finding their way towards me, we flirted, chatted alot and it turned out we actually had alot in common, even after such a short conversation time. It seemed so comfortable, I'd never felt like this before but I didn't quite realise because of the levels of alcohol; as far as I could see I was having the best time of my life and there would be no emotion entangled into this unforgetable night.

As we made our way to the club, Luke and I found ourselves firstly holding hands, stealing away kisses in the dark and other little flirtatious gestures which then developed into more as we all hit the dancefloor. The alcohol flowed and slowly I found myself in the middle of 7 men hitting on me, all best friends. I went to dance with one because another had tried to kiss me (by this point I knew I was with Luke for the evening therefore I couldn't have him see me get with anybody else) but then as I danced with the other it was like deja vu, I managed to make my way around them all until I thought I found a safe bet with Janice's grandson, Matt, as he surely wouldn't hit on me. I was wrong, he did so I retreated to the toilets where, luckily, I found one of the girls and managed to have a heart to heart with her about Luke. She warned me about his ex girlfriend there and then, her summary was that with him it is a no commitment fling as he's still in the getting over her phase therefore I shouldn't expect anything. I nearly hugged her as she had said exactly what I wanted to hear, hello say goodnight and go :D

[a group photo with some random girls and without Luke I think... See if you can spot me, I look like a balding head with my mouth wide open leaning on the boy in the red shirt, Tom.]

Me and Luke fooled around for the rest of the night, danced, enjoyed eachothers company until early morning when we left the club as it closed, I had never had such a great time with so little money! It was all a blurry mess filled with flashing lights, photographs being taken, loud music and dancing with the boy of my choice. I felt trully wanted but I had made and clear choice and everyone had respected it now all that was left was the decision of what to do when we got back to the Chalet.

Should I sleep with him or not? Would I even get the chance? What would the consequences be?

CONTINUING THE LONG TALE SOON, IT IS NOW 00:56 AND I HAVE AN EARLY START TOMRROW MORNING, G'NIGHT :)

- Eve Anna x

Playlists, songs to get you through Autumn 2009

I have just spent a few moments on my close friend's blog and seeing additions to his blog entries has made me come up with an idea. People post pictures & videos and music with their blog all the time but not many go as far as making a video playlist on a blog website, yes I know it deafeats the point of writing but music is just as essiential in our lives so I would like to put forward a few recent tracks which have been and will get me through until Christmas, I do apologise I can only get them up in hyperlinks though (I shall make additional comments and remarks to memories are linked back to them or reasons for why I believe they are so fantastic; a miny track review some might call it).

1) JOSHUA RADIN- SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE-

My choice for this track is simple. One of my favorite songs in the whole wide world, I believe it's a masterpiece despite its' simplicity, always the first track I turn to whatever my mood.

2) NNEKA- HEARTBEAT

This so outlines reality, it gives me no emotion which is a great thing as not many songs have the ability to do that. It is a completely contreversial number, I have much admiration for Nneka for her unusual style and the blunt and brutal truth of today.

3) CHRIS DAUGHTRY- WHAT ABOUT NOW

This song was a part of the X-Factor show on ITV 1 sometime during late September which influenced me and many of my friends, it is nothing special but it certainly made itself well known to my generation. Like 'Heartbeat', it is too politically influenced, which I find quite ironic as I have only recently discovered this.

4) FLORENCE AND THE MACHINE- DRUMMING SONG

This song is definitely one of Florence's best. I am personally a huge fan of this fantastic artist, the rhytmic structure differentiates it very much from the majority of her other songs and is ideal to be in the Official Charts as it is nowhere near as outgoing as the remainder of her album.

5) DISNEY- HAKUNA MATATA

I have no comment to this, it just has to be here :) All time favorite childhood song.

6) THE XX- CRYSTALISED

Such a laid back tune really, especially handy if you have to write a difficult piece of work or concentrate hard on another blog entry.

7) RITON AND PRIMARY 1- WHO'S THERE? (DOORLY REMIX)

The ultimate party tune for this season in the alternative, dance, trance etc scene. Can be appreciated even more with a large amount of alcohol and excessive dancing.

8) OUTBOX [org. Kelly Rowland and David Guetta]- WHEN LOVE TAKES OVER

Today, I discovered this amazing version of the summer hit 'When Love Takes Over'. I have a very sentimental connection to this linking back to the summer in Czech Republic and I choke up anytime this song gets into full swing therefore this version made me bawl like a baby, it's beautiful.

9) MAKER ZTRACENY- ZTRACIS [without accents]

This is also linked back to my Czech family so I think it is appropriate to take its rightful place after the previous song. It was first released back in 2006 but I have always loved it, especially because it is in Slovak and the singer/ songwriter is extremely passionate about anything he does. I ws extremely lucky to have also met him therefore I know how much of a genuine person he is, not forgetting to mention that he's gorgeous!! This live version of the song was recorded at the show before I got to meet him for a coffee.

10) INGRID MICHALESON- BREAKABLE

I have always had a connection to this song, mainly because of the lyrics. I admire Ingrid very much and think myself extremely lucky that I got to see one of her concerts a few years ago. She has been one of my role models lately because of her unbeliavable strenght after break up with fellow singer/ songwriter Joshua Radin (mentioned above).

11) MARIA TAYLOR- ONE FOR THE SHAREHOLDER

This song has been my 'feminist' song, by that I mean is when I feel vulnerable and mistreated, I put this song on repeat several times and automatically feel strong again. The strenght which Maria Taylor performed this in February 2009 at the Shephard's Bush Hall really blew me and my friend Charlotte away, we were stunned by the performance of a mere support act. It even made us doubt Joshua Radin's incredible set, by the end of which, Charlotte had made her mind up that Maria Taylor had performed better whilst I still loyally stuck by Josh.

12) BEYONCE- HALO

Yes, I know that this song is rather over played but my memories link back to my summer romance again where I sang this to Lukas, my Czech boy whilst on the way to one of our dates out, in his car. All the emotion captured in this just enhances the magic of this 4 minute track, when listening to it with the boy I love, I felt invincible, life was perfect and I thought despite all the problems facing us, together we could get through them, make the other strong.

13) FILTHY DUKES- TUPAC ROBOT CLUB ROCK

Another one of those arrogant party tracks which are inpossible to sit still to. It is not exactly the highest quiality of music but I love it nevertheless. The mix of different artists fighting over different verses and explicit lyrics mix up to make the perfect music party cocktail for a wild night out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_p47UAVj7w

14) MARY J. BLIGE & CHRIS BROWN- STRONGER

This is a relatively old song and even through my harted of Chris Brown, I adore this song alot at the moment, I explain this by Brown not starring in much of this song otherwise I can believe my opinion to be quite different. However, this song has alot of soul and always makes me want to shed a tear or two. I don't quite know the true meaning and I believe it's very personal the Mary but she has definitely achieved her objective, to motivate and give courage to the listener.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWigIb8w704&feature=fvw

15) PAULO NUTINI- NEW SHOES

This is the ulitmate cheer up song. Whether alone or with friends listening to this song will force everybody to sing along i.e. cheer up immediately. If I have my music on shuffle and this track comes on, it never ends without me having a smile on my face even if I've just been crying.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GAgm8sZ5mo

16) IMOGEN HEAP- GOODNIGHT AND GO

This song is really quite unusual and can be interpreted in numerous different ways which is why after four years, from romance, to madness even to sex so I can still listen to it on repeat for hours. Every relationship can be linked back to it in it's own way which is why after a break up, this song is tabboo for quite some time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9athUdhH40

17) IMOGEN HEAP- LOOSE ENDS

A true spiteful song, just like Maria Taylor's 'One for the Shareholder' this song is also very uplifting, it makes me believe that the say gooddnight and go theory can work and that complicated relationships are a part of life, they can boost your self-esteem tremendously. It's quite a mysterious and mischevious tune for those getting ready nights when you want to feel enpowered.

18) IMOGEN HEAP- HALLELUJAH

Imogen Heap is a very influencial artist for me which explains why I have added so many of her tracks. Hallelujah is her masterpiece, as in my opinion her cover of this legendary song is the best. Ranging from Billie Joel to Alexandra Burke, nobody has ever been able to capture the song such as Leonard Cohen when he first performed it in the early 60's. The emotion in this track is genuine and never fails to give me goosebumps. Her feeling for this song, her pronounciation, the majority of the song in accapella, everything is perfect.

19) DOES IT OFFEND YOU, YEAH?- LET'S MAKE OUT

I think this is a complete tune, out there, explicit and entirely insane. There is no head or toe in this track but it is a joke really, most of the album is like this but there is no party without a track from 'Does It Offend You, Yeah?', afterall the name of the band speaks for itself, outrageous and brilliant.

20) REGINA SPEKTOR- SAMSON

On the contrary to the track above, this is a pure ballad. The pianno is slow and innocent, as are the lyrics. It is an extremely romantic song which again reminds me of my summer, in my opinion it is about true love and all its' memories, the sadness but no regret even with the pain which follows. Regina Spektor's beautiful voice is simply perfect but you cannot be fooled by her angel sound as the lyrics explain.

21) GARY GO- WONDERFUL

A very uplifting song, this is a gym track through and through. Whenever I need to jog this is the first song on my playlist, it can be perceived as both sad and encouraging and doesn't have a certain meaning which is perfect. Nevertheless, the build up throughout and the positive lyrics always give me a boost of energy and drive, whatever the situation may be. They make everyone see their true value.

22) RON POPE- YOU'RE THE REASON I COME HOME

The quietness of this song is trully beautiful. It is not only calm, no, it is almost a lullaby. If you're lucky to have that certain someone, this song will make you melt because it is for those who are in love. The lyrics are not subtle in the slightest, Ron Pope sings how he feels simply without any riddles, treasuring his love and realising his luck of finding such a person. Whether thi song is based on the truth or not, this singer's lyrics seem genuine enough.

23) FLIGHT OF THE CONCHORDS- BUSINESS TIME

Comedians 'Flight of the Conchords' are one of a kind, they turn music into a complete comedy act and this song is a great example. This song is so unsexy and akward that it becomes funny and sexy, it is unbeliavable, turning such an everyday routine into foreplay items. Countless times of listening to this song, I still cannot control the laughter whenever it comes up on my Ipod, unfortunately also in public.

24) TEMPER TRAP- SWEET DISPOSITION

This melodic beauty is a very recent track but since the first time I listened to it, I absolutely adored it. It is not only it's unusuallity but also the atmosphere the whole band create by this song. It is quite incredible, almost reminding me of the atmosphere Matt Bellamy creates, of course you cannot compare the legendary Muse with such a new band but you never know, maybe Muse have finally found their competition out there.

25) ANDY MCKEE- INTO THE OCEAN

What can I say about this? Andy McKee is simply indescribable, he plays hours and hours of lyricless music but in his case the human voice is not necessary, al lthat is needed is his over-complicated guitar/ harp. This tune can be both uplifting and depressing, like alcohol, it enhances your mood but unlike the toxic substance, always makes you think about your actions and thoughts alot clearer. If there is something significant on your mind then it is bound to make you feel uneasy with that taunting feeling in the pit of your stomach but that is all part of this man's art, trully fantastic.

This has been a very random evening filled with analysis on music but I hope I have introducted a few new artists to my readers (there are two so far, haha) as well as making myself feel better personally. Writing about something like this can often leave you feeling like alot more weight has been lifted off your shoulders, where as analysing and discussing your problems in such details can often bring even more gloom on the whole siutation.

Another 2 months, another thorough heartbreak. A blog entry is in order.

I do believe it's quite ironic really. This blog was not meant to be all about the male species but I suppose that is the only thing going on in my life right now besides normal teenage occurances, I should be quite satisfied but after the events of the summer apres the last blog entry and past ghosts coming back to haunt me, I wouldn't really consider myself to be happy let alone completely okay.

A few days after writing my last post of say goodnight and go, I had possibly reached my upmost limits of putting up with the constant family issues, inappropriate remarks by the builders and the added pressures of studying (all this 24/7 of course) so I decided to take up my nan's best friend's (Janice's) offer of staying with her for a long weekend. Not realising that this one Saturday was going to change my life (yes, trully) and that my say previous theories and experiences would all be pushed aside following my tragic summer movie romance. I believed, and maybe still do, that this man could be my true love (a concept at which I had previously always scoffed at) but unfortunately it was just all at the wrong time, place and therefore the complications all arouse much more swiftly than expected. This is a piece of writing which I wrote around the third week of August of my thoughts and contemplations from that unexpected experience..

"Should you trust a guy who..?

• only broke up with his ex-girlfriend of three years (who also lived with him) around three months ago.
• has been photographed looking rather cosy with her at a party which you couldn't go to after you had slept with him.
• still has a picture of her in his wallet.
• talks to her on Facebook almost as much as he talks to you, publically.

But who..?

• tells you that you're the first girl to make him forget his exgirlfriend when he's with you and that he's never felt so happy so fast.




• tells you he loves you (after 2 weeks of knowing him).
• respects you alot.
• is always a true gentleman.
• still seems to be interested in you even despite seeing you be sick, cry, have no make up and sans shower after a night out.
• is alot more keen in your'naive'self than you are in him.
• has stuck by you in the past 2 weeks as alot has happened.
• has made you so unbeliavably happy even though all the trouble lately (making you feel rather guilty).

Well I still don't believe him but in all fairness this is another holiday romance for just under three weeks therefore I cannot fend for what he does when I'm not around during autumn. The business between him and his exgirlfriend is definitely not finished as they both still have many of their things at their old flat and they still get on remarkably well despite such a 'heartwrenching and messy breakup' (his exact words, I must add).

All I know is that if the boy really is serious; something I only half-hearthedly believe, then I am unrealistically in love with him. Even though it is such a huge statement to make after knowing somebody for only two weeks, I am calmed by the aspect that he seems to be even more in love with me, if he is being trully honest with all his gestures and words.

Nevertheless, to explain this budding new romance from the start..

After 3 weeks with exams, family, rebulding the entire house and financial worries, I had pretty much hit rock bottom so I took up the offer of my nan's best friend and went to stay with her for 2-3 days (theoretically). I considered it a long relaxing weekend away so I could indulge in a little studying but mostly some time in the sun involving myself in a bit of intellectual conversation with a few seniors ;). Clearly, this was only a theory!! As I was being driven to Janice's house, she informed me of her plans for me so I could really thoroughly enjoy my stay. I was to go out that night (Saturday) to some local club with her grandson, not having partied for almost a month, I threw myself at the opportunity. Desperate craving for an adventure! The evening came and I was ready to roll (as much as I could have with the clothing choice I had brought). I was picked up by Matt (the grandson), the type of guy who I knew I would have a great night with despite his hopeless taste in clothing and a mind still stuck in the 90's. Immediately I scolded him on the sleazy unbuttoned shirt look which caused him to sort himself out. We made introductions and bantered on the way to the car and his two friends within it.. "

[Andre, Stan and I, a random photo from a few days later, a celebration of Andre's birthday, all completely wasted but having a great time, as portrayed above....]

CONTINUATION OF STORY IN NEXT BLOG ENTRY AS THIS ONE IS BECOMING FAR TOO LONG.

(also maybe I'm hoping to create a smidgen of anticipation :) )