You like to please me, yeah I like that.

It's funny, he is really beginning to act like a boyfriend now. The whole picking me up everywhere at any time, doing me all these favours, being cute and cuddely; even holding my hand in public and putting his arms around me. It's all a bit overwhelming really because my heart just feels so full right now and I feel great about myself because I see how attracted to me he is that for once I am more than enough for one person, he doesn't want me to be any different. He's making all these plans for when my exams finish, I can't wait! Another interesting thing is that I must've gone round his house a dozen times now and we still haven't had sex, plenty of fooling around but nothing else, it's literally the perfect relationship.

We had so much last night, drinking whisky and watching YouTube, spent a bit of time with the family downstairs. His mum kept going on about how she wished I'd gone to Spain with them etc and how she saw this girl that looked a little like me and then Ross butted in 'She didn't have anything on Eve, and her boyfriend was a twat!'. I couldn't stop laughing, it was great. We then went back upstairs and chatted a bit more and ended up cuddling watching the office til way too late. Didn't get a lift with Chris in the end because Ross wouldn't let me leave so he walked me home in the end. It took SO long! So funny though. Never laughed so much on the way back from a night out; he was fairly out off it too which made it all the funnier. We eventually got to mine so he made sure I was safe, we said a long good bye and we set off back for that awful walk. He didn't even know where he was going so that worried me a bit but he ended up getting back alright, maybe a little scared as most of hte journey was pitch black and this was about 1am in the morning on a full moon. None the less we had so much banter yet again, I couldn't stop laughing, he must think I'm a loon. Especially when I added Housey and we spent like 20 mins talking to her taking the complete piss.

When we were texting after he left, I sent him this facebook post saying

'The Offiiiiice. More more more. Kthxbi.' and all he replied was 'k'

so I texted him having a go...

'Definitely not a suitable reply! x'

'Why? I think it summed it up beautifully. x'

'Think your wife's worth more than 'K'. x'

'Of course she is! She's worth half a bottle of Jim Bean.... Plus an hour walk. x'

'Ok, that's fair enough hubs. You win... this time! x'

'Ha. *every time! Night wifey. Kisses x.'

'Kisses'! Kisses? This is coming from a 6'' something huge muscely guy. Literally I felt so coy, cutest thing ever. Then I try argue with myself that he's only playing me. He's awful. The biggest gentleman I have ever met. Maybe Neps is right, they're not that bad afterall. Just must not fall for him now... Much anyway.

6 days until freedom!!!!

Welcome home hubby.

My head is just full of revision right now but ... Eeeee. Couldn't be more excited as Ross is coming back home tomorrow!!!!!!! I know I may have passed the borderline of pathetic a long time ago but I don't care. Definitely seeing him Tuesday after my long bad arse revision session and 3 hour General Studies exam; waste of time. Anyway, I don't really know even what to say because it'll only be for a few hours but still, it'll be a nice kiss and cuddle again. Woo! Literally feel like such an idiot however I believe after a week with his parents annoying him and couples everywhere 'making him feel like shit.' I'm sure he's more excited to see me than I am to see him.

Sometimes, people just tend to out-grow each other.

That's a very honest title and that is exactly what happened between me and Petr. I have changed so much in the past year; it's called growing up and we were just no longer suited. I outgrew him unfortunately and he couldn't keep up, that's what went wrong. I just need someone else right now, nothing with so much pressure and expectation, not having to question the future. I'm being questioned enough right now, about the future, babies, marriage and I just don't need to be questioned about where my relationship is leading also.

This is why this Ross thing is so brilliant, he knows this is only temporary and it's great just being adored for a while although he is starting to look at the future a little like asking about whether I think Swansea is too far etc but nonetheless, it has no pressure whatsoever, unless he turns his life around a good 180 degrees and starts doing something with his life: however this is highly unlikely.I hate that I'm even thinking of a relationship possibility in the future. I think one of the things he likes about me is that I'm free spirited and don't want to lie him down, if I started having expectations, I'd be let down; it's pretty simple.

Right now it's all great fun, planning to spend all the time we can together, every free minute. Making up plans for exciting adventures, things I've wanted to do for years, like Thorpe Park. Woo :D Also a secret day out in Windsor doing things that only locals know about because he's got family there. It's just great. Eee, couldn't be more excited! Keep singing 'Can’t you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
Yeah that’s that super bass' by Nicki Minaj, just so smiley and excited for this summer. The scary thing is that I'll miss him loads when I go to Czech and that shouldn't happen. It should be interesting. Needless to say, Im' taking things one leap at a time, a little more than a step it seems. It's just a shame that these two week are my most free weeks and he's away or in college the whole time which makes things so much more difficult. On the other hand, he got fired from work today which means that he'll have much more free time for meee. Although less cash I suppose which means that I need to make sure he buys me things before it all runs out. Or we could just spend more time at his watching the OC, not a bad idea. Or, even better, considering it's summer, there's plenty to do outside for no money, or little money. As he said to me though, it doesn't matter as we still have others company. What a loser saying that kinda thing but it's sweet and as I said the other night, I've now seen his softer more vulnerable side thus I know he is a nice guy, not as much of a prick as first anticipated.

It's such a great distraction during revision because I'm so happy right now, adrenaline pumping whilst I'm working: it's perfect. Much better than having to worry about relationship problems like during my January exams, that made things so much worse.

Can't wait to see him though, that's the bottom line. I feel so smug with him, we are the couple that everyone stares at, it's amazing. The muscly guy with the designer clothes and sun glasses, perfectly casual yet styled hair, revving around in a gorgeous shiny black sports car: good music on, not too loud and tacky though, getting out and opening the door for the tall toned girl with long blond hair, shiny white teeth in a dress and heels, legs and tits out. People do honestly stop and stare, it's hilarious because I didn't think either of us were good looking enough for that. It's the best summer fling, couldn't have better luck. Yet when I'm with him we just dress down to trackies or shorts or whatever and relax acting like lads. Of course, I'm still a pathetic girly lad compared to him but regardless, it's great fun being able to act like a lad yet still be seen as sexy!

Plus I'm determined to have another Nandos with him soon, the last one was lush. Of course he photographed it, being such a momentous moment and all. Nothing better than a Nandos. Woo!!

There is a very thing line here.

'eve

you know

i will continue to look out for you

i will fight for your happiness

i just wish u would make it easier on me

and just try what i say.'

 

 

Kayle Mansel McLeish, you don't even realise just how grateful I am to have you. However, I am warning you, if you carry on being this amazing, I will fall in love with you one day and you never know when that will be and then you won't be able to get rid of me. You're digging yourself a hole which one of us will fall in one day: it's likely to be me. I just wish there were more of you or we could've made this work before we soidified this friend thing. It would be so much easier ... PRICK!!

Bad boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away.

That’s the kind of dude I was lookin’ for
And yes you’ll get slapped if you’re lookin’ hoe
I said, excuse me you’re a hell of a guy
I mean my, my, my, my you’re like pelican fly
I mean, you’re so shy and I’m loving your tie
You’re like slicker than the guy with the thing on his eye, oh

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin’ away
Beating like a drum and it’s coming your way
Can’t you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
Yeah that’s that super bass

See I need you in my life for me to stay
No, no, no, no, no I know you’ll stay
No, no, no, no, no don’t go away
Boy you got my heartbeat runnin’ away
Don’t you hear that heartbeat comin’ your way
Oh it be like, boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
Can’t you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass

Come back home already, you've only been gone a few hours but I miss you already. Being gone another week just isn't cool.I need my husband here with me, not away on holiday with lots of hot half naked Spanish girls nearby. Jealous? I didn't think so but hell I am.

'I might check you in when I get there, will that help?'- Ross.

I've only just admitted what's been bugging me the whole evening and why everything has gotten to me tonight. It's because I know I won't see Ross until next Wednesday at the earliest which means a week and a half. That's so long and I'm not used to that right now, just seems strange. Especially after last night, I don't want him to leave for that long. What's been bugging me is this... I'll miss him whilst he's away. I'll miss him. I never thought this would happen, he's a complete prick and I would like to punch him half the time, but the other half, he's the perfect gentleman, showing that he really cares. Which he shouldn't!! Just perfect. I'll really miss him. Fuck. Next thing you know I'll be saying I love him. FML.

Death by Housey. Close call.

I thought I was going to die at the end of my shift today. I was just finishing off, taking the laundry upstairs (into enemy territory where they all hate me) however the people that hate me aren't normally in at the weekend so I thought I'd get by with an awkward silence and wheeling my small pathetic trolley past as fast as I could. I never expect to run into the scariest hater of all. .Housey'. Otherwise known as Stacey, the girl that likes Ross. Her best friend is Lizzie, the girl who won't stop pestering the lads even though they've been trying to get rid of her for months. As the lads respect me more than her because I'm my own person and won't be swayed by them, he hates me to the extent of trying to bitch about me at work, well that back fired on her. Anyway, regardless, it is clear they both pretty much hate me, more so because me and Ross are no longer just a joke and he asked to bring me to Lizzie's birthday (I'd never go), anyway, she is constantly getting beaten over the head with that fact that we're seeing a lot of each other and her & House (& even Natalie, my boss' and a surrogate mother's daughter) have constant growing hatred inside them.

Guess which one is Housey! The one above her is Lizzie... This isn't a horrific picture but the only one I could get off her considering I'm obviously not friends with her on facebook. Nor Lizzie.

So, back to today. I was chatting in the lift upstairs and then went out of it by myself and wheeled my heavy trolley around the corner and almost physically wheeled it into Housey. She was standing there, leaning against the wall in her polo shirt, bling, tattoos on show, pitch black spiky hair and dark rimmed thick glasses, hunched over just glaring at me with the biggest death stare I'd ever seen. I tried to look away as fast as I could and give her a sort of condolence smile but all of that failed fairly quickly. Just as I managed to swerve around her in the tiny corridor, I plodded away as fast as I could not knowing whether to laugh or cry. Then as soon as I thought I was far away enough, I turned around to see where she was and she was standing behind me, following me at my heels. I turned around as quick as I could and just uttered a little scared peep. After all, there was nobody in Laundry and it's separated by several sound proof doors. She is over twice the size of me and truly hates me. I thought she was going to kill me with that death stare, she gangster walked straight behind me and into laundry and then just at the last minute where I was getting ready for a violent episode or at least a mouth full, she turned into the staff changing rooms away from me. I turned into laundry and laughed a little, so happy the fright was over. Couldn't believe it. I was actually shaking a little: she is huge!! (and I'm currently pretty much skin and bone so she could quite easily snap me considering I'm fairly certain she does boxing). I came downstairs & mum was just starting her shift, I was like' Okay worst ending to a good shift ever!' I couldn't stop smirking, still haven't, that nervous laughter and happiness to still be alive is still present. She is so much bigger than I remembered, the hatred was seeping through. Ross better appreciate this, it's like all the girls there are cat fighting over him. What is this? He's great and all but not perfect, by far ( ;) ) yet all love him. 'Ridicccc!'

Thank god I dodged the bullet.

I don't ever want to leave here.

I had a great day today. Another amazing afternoon with Ross, finally listened to this song in the car agai nand it made me remember (or he told me) its' name. I can't quite bring myself to talk about today yet, I have too much of a migraine to make sense of ti all. Nothing bad; only overwhelming. It's just not what I expected, he's actually such an amazing guy, not just a prick as I thought. All that he does for me is genuine not just to try get me into bed so it's all just a mind blur right now.

I need sleep, g'night.

- Eve Anna x